Tuesday, September 14, 2010

These Children...

These children? I miss them. For some reason, our schedules have been jam packed and I feel like I am not as present in their lives as I want to be. I actually have this secret (or not so secret) desire of staying home. I would like to be the one to take them and pick them up from school (well, clearly if I stayed home, Q would be with me), and to make their lunches and do homework. But I feel overwhelmed. And of course, financially, this is not in the cards for me right now. And when people say things like, "Oh, cut back." I would like to counter with, "Where?????" Because, clearly, we cannot sell our house for what we paid for it. We owe more on our vehicles than they are worth. And, you know, I can't force Q to stop wearing diapers. So, I just have to suck it up and get over it. Me, working outside of the home, is what is best for my family at this point in time.

I know that this is an old picture (you know, so ooooooold, from this summer) but I love it because it shows the stage that my children are in right now. The girls were taking some advertising pictures for a local boutique. Q didn't know what they were doing, but he did know that he desperately wanted to be a part of it. Whatever it was. And regardless of the fact that he only had one shoe on. And that's just how he is right now. He loves the girls so tremendously that he has to be a part of whatever they are doing. They are his favorite people. And I must say, the girls have grown increasingly better with him - more patient, more attentive, more loving, more responsible. It is amazing to witness their bond to each other strengthen and grow.

2 comments:

sharonp said...

When you think you want to stay home, just think about the toilets...and the laundry to jerk yourself back to reality.

Emily said...

I am right there with you. I watch the hours pass until I can leave to come home to my family. Meanwhile, daycare people are getting all the smiles and coos from my baby and Jonah is off being a big boy in kindergarten. I make the lunches and prep the bottles. But I stay up half the night to do it so I can try to squeeze in as much time as possible with my kids before they go to bed. It's never enough though. And I'm always tired.